Hi Force:

Thank you for being TRUE to yourself and us.

Since there are some personal emotion problems involved, most psychiatrist will recommend you to have daily exercise so I will suggest you to choose a career with some kind of MOVEMENT required. It can help your emotion and also maintain a job. Those jobs like personal trainer, fitness instructor, PE teacher...etc.

If you would like to go to college then I will suggest you to major in English, since this is the language you are used to and your composition and writing capability is already there, however it requires a lot of reading. But I have noticed you have been reading bible a lot so it shouldn't be that much difficult for you.

Hope this will help ou.