Both rwking and nonsqtr have stolen my "thunder". May I add my 2 cents? Having religion forced on you is a rough road. Sharing in a loving and compassionate manner; as Jesus Christ does, is the best manner to help teach anyone about such a complex subject as love, faith, God, Satan.
A quick point here, the most powerful weapon Satan has is having people not believe in him, stealth so to speak. Just think of the severe damage that could be done.
I am sorry to hear that you were is such a forced situation. I am sure it was out of love for you, but people, parents try too hard many times well being as they may be. That is one of my many faults too. I am trying to mellow as I approach 55.
I would say you never know what may happen in the future. You sound as if you've made up your mind and heart with this "final" choice. No, I cannot prove; using our 5 senses, that God exisits. You cannot prove the God does not exist. The best I can do is ask you this; where does love come from, where and how do we know what is right or wrong; i.e. murder? Did some person just one day say "hey murder is wrong" and the whole human race now knows that? How do we know these things? And if some person said them, who the heck are they to tell me what is right or wrong; afterall they are no better than I, right?
I submit that God tells us these things. As unique as each person is, Gods (Jesus Christs) living relationship with us is as unique as each of us is and also interwoven through all of humanity is the love and laws bonding us together.
I hope that you can someday open your heart again and seek the love and salvation of Jesus Christ.
I was told this many years ago, the difference between every other religion in the world and having a personal relationship with Jesus Christ is every other religion is mankind trying to earn their way to Heaven (if you believe in it) through good thoughts, acts, words and deeds and a relationship with Jesus is God finding mankind again through His Son Jesus Christ who willingly gave His life, dying for all our sins so that we may have eternal life.
Who is perfect enough, good enough to earn their way to Heaven? No one. It is a free gift and a free choice each person has, to believe or not and accept the perfect gift of salvation from Jesus Christ. It should not be forced on anyone.
I hope you make the right choice and allow your children the same freedom.

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Christian, moderate conservative, willing to consider other points of view and compromise when appropriate.