I've lost my faith in humanity. I used to think people just didn't know. I used to think if it was just explained to them there'd realize they were wrong. There'd realize the'd were just thinking about it the wrong way. But i was wrong. Not only are people stupid. Not only are they selfish. Not only are they arrogant. But i realized that many i just simply evil. Evil isn't necessarily wrong but i'd always choose good over right and wrong over evil. People often don't do things because it going to benefit them or help them. They do it without reason.

I've lost my faith in Democracy. The system that brings 'power' to the 'people'. A system where the people are always complain about the goverment they voted in. A system more corrupt then any other. A system where the fight is for power and not for whats best. I realized that i just didn't care if a dictator gained control. What would the difference be? People are stupid or brainwashed to know who there voting for anyway. What would the difference be between a dictator i didn't like and government i didn't like? My vote wasn't gonna matter anyway. Put simply the democracy was the system that allowed Hitler to gain power. The people wanted him in power. The people are stupid.

I've lost my faith in Christianity. A religion that seemed so blatantly obvious to control the population i just couldn't accept it was coincidence. A religion that never explained why i shouldn't something. I can't commit suicide? Why not? Because of a sudden drop in the population? And hell to me seems to be solely there for non-christians. I can get my sins forgiven not matter what they are. Seems to me its not wheter you follow the book of god its where you've heard of it.

I've lost my faith in life. Have you ever found it strange that we, the only beings capable of thinking about death, don't? Try to. You just can't. You have to be incredibly depressed to start with, to yeven be able to get through that barrier that stops you thinking about. If you break through that barrier and go far enough in you get hit. HIT. Hit by pointlessness. The energy is drained from you. It's a feeling indescribable. Words don't do the felling justice. They can't nothing can other than experiencing it.

I envy anyone with faith. I just hope you hold you hold on to it.

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What's this i hear bed? Word has it you and Pam are sleeping together.