A thread for those who have lived more than one life. Life used to be so simple. I was married and figured I would always be married. I was a loyal husband, worked hard, tried my best to be a good son, a good brother, a good friend, a good uncle, and I worked hard to help make the world a better place. I was a boy scout in a man's life. I was naive. I was betrayed. I had been blind. I saw what I wanted to believe. And slowly I went down hill. Happiness became a distant memory. Sex was but a distant memory. My health spun out of control. I spent almost all of my time working alone and watching desperately as my business collapsed with the economy. I found myself going broke, desperately lonely, and living with a woman who had become a complete stranger. Eventually I realized that after over 20 years, I had no idea who I had married. She was never who she pretended to be. My best friend died, another went nuts, and another was lost to booze. My family was hit with a series of health crises and deaths and what was left fell apart. One day I realized that I had nothing. In spite of my best efforts and a lifetime of loyalty, I had no one. Everyone and everything I cared about was gone. For months I fell asleep with tears streaming down my cheeks as I contemplated the best way to end it all. And I very nearly did. Then, like a bolt out of the blue, I found a reason to live. And so began the wildest ride I have ever had in my life. I began a new life I never could have imagined. Give a man a fish and he will eat for a day. Give a man a beautiful young woman and he regains the will to live. And so it was. I found the will to live through youth and beauty. I found more happiness than I have ever known. I saw one amazing young lady for three years and was truly living in a dream the entire time. I didn't know it was possible to be so happy. She was a goddess. She was an angel. She was a soul mate. She was my heart. But with 25 years between us, as I knew it must, that eventually ended. So I moved on, have met about 100 women, dated a dozen, and found another young beauty who fills me with joy. I don't know if I will ever find the kind of love I had for three glorious years. I suspect a love like that only comes along once in a lifetime if we're lucky. But I have also learned to live in the moment. I have learned that permanence is an illusion.I have learned to take joy and sorrow as it comes and to cherish them both. After all, great sorrow can only come when we lose that which gives us great joy. I have learned that things don't bring happiness. I have learned that for many, marriage is an illusion. I have learned that life is precious and we need to make the most of ever moment. And I learned that sometimes happiness is only found when we cast aside expectations and a lifetime beliefs, and break all the rules. I have lived more in the last 5 years than I did in the previous 45. Most people would be shocked if they knew the entire story. But it is my story and my secret life. And I finally learned how to be happy.