First of all, I am sorry about my poor English. I want to discuss a question made by many others and relate it to my own life. I do inecessantly dwell on the posibility of me being dead, It doesn't mean I am going to do that, I have no audacity to carry out such an action but the fact I can't keep my mind off those suicidal thoughts is quite disturbing. There is a plenty of causes that possibly have put me in such a mental state. I have recently found out that nothing would really appease me. I ask myself from a time to time,What do I live for ? I'm 21, My whole life is allegedly ahead of me, Although the truth is my life is a handful of failures that I can't even explain to others because depression is something really subjective that can't be precisely assessed by others, even by those who are virtually supposed to be adept at it such as psychologists. I gave my own life experience to broach the affair of what we are designated for and why do we really live if our end is obviously definite. I apologize for being so negative and dramatic but I have been preoccupied with this query for quite a long time. Thanks for the attention !
